It is a mixture of things, really. 1. The economic recession facing our country. 2. Living on a much lower salary with three mouths to feed. 3. Leading a church through a stewardship emphasis. 4. Doing our 2008 income taxes on Saturday. And 5. a growing felt need to be a better provider for my family.
All of these things are beginning to remove the soil around my soul and have started showing some roots in my life. 1 Timothy 6:10 says “For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.”
Roots are found deep beneath the soil, hardly ever seen unless you are planting something new or tilling up something old. It seems God is both planting and tilling in my life lately.
He is tilling the soil around my heart which is showing roots of self-reliance, self-centered love of earthly treasures. He is tilling up my pride, my ambition, and my deep-seeded desire to be wealthy.
But I also hope he is planting something new. A fresh, new seed of sacrificial living. A new seed of contentment, not only with what I have, but what heavenly treasures I am storing up. A new seed of recognition that even in my “American” middle-income earning lifestyle, I am still gloriously rich compared to two-thirds of the world. And above that, I am a child of the King, a co-heir with Christ. I have the greatest wealth in the world: salvation and forgiveness of my many sins.
Keep tilling Lord. Dig deep. Root out all the roots of the love of money. But also keep planting new seed, so that I might grow more in love with You.